Black on Black



I am so excited for this weekend! This time tomorrow I will be in NY. It is a business trip, but I've never been and am excited nonetheless. This week has been so overwhelming but rewarding. I try to not complain much because I absolutely love what I do and am so lucky to be able to work from almost wherever I want, be creative and meet so many lovely people on the job. Growing up I knew I wanted to be my own boss and I knew I loved many things, but nothing quite as much as fashion. It was tough though, because many of the people I was surrounded by frowned upon it, thinking for some reason that loving clothes must always mean you're a materialistic, self-absorbed, show-off with no purpose. So I tucked that idea away for many years and instead told people I wanted to be a pharmacist. HA! Can you imagine I walked around saying this? High school came, and I realized, boy do I not like science. So I decided okay, I am gonna work in business. Doing what exactly? Who knows? So I went with the flow.

It wasn't till half way through college that I decided I wanted to pursue a career in fashion. I knew I was up against a lot of negativity, both in the eyes of some of those around me and honestly, myself. I grew up Christian in what some may consider a "conservative" community. I've placed such high expectations on myself as a result. This is both good and bad. Good because it keeps me grounded and reminds me of who's I am, who I am and what my purpose is— this keeps me out of trouble, most of the time. Bad because sometimes those expectations limit me and instill a fear in me. You see, I'm a firm believer that there are good and "bad" people in every field. Yet somehow, sometimes I shame myself because I couldn't be a Doctor and help others. It's a constant battle. By the way, I use "bad" because every individual has their own history and struggle, a reason for what they do.

As time goes on, I realize more that life isn't easy, and there will always be that battle. I think the important part is to do good, be loving, kind and be the best versions ourselves that we can be. Those little things are so huge and can make a big impact on others. I've also learned that loving the feel of a fabric or the way a piece of clothing was cut, sewn and drapes doesn't mean I am materialistic; it means I appreciate creativity and craftsmanship. I enjoy the art of dressing.

God will always be my number 1, He's always got my back, and by trusting and knowing that, everything else falls into place.

So with that all in mind, I'm gonna kill my next meeting and not be afraid of feeling fabulous in my beautiful Alfani ensemble. How good did these shots turn out? Man was I ever blessed with an amazing husband! Hes not only so supportive but the best Instagram husband I could've ever asked for. :)

Stay humble.

Brenda xx