btw... it's true. we split.
It’s Valentine’s Day.
Ironically, I am choosing today to be the day I finally, officially announce it… Carlen and I have split. A while ago actually. The DM’s have been trickling in over the past year and I can finally respond. After nearly 9 years together, 4 of them married, we’re no longer together.
Social media is a funny thing. I often feel pressure to share my every step of the way the moment it happens, but the thing is I don’t function that way. I needed to let it sink in, I needed to process it, to live it for myself before I shared about it.
When we had split I often wondered how I’d announce it. Would I be raw and real? Would I fluff it? Would I do it Channing Tatum and Jenna Dewan style— “We have lovingly chosen to separate as a couple…” I mean how do you properly do this?
Here’s my truth, I am still unsure how. I am such a romantic at heart and I never in a million years thought I’d end up divorced and immersed in the dating scene of LA, out of all places. It’s bizarre. But, I can tell you this, it was for the better. Even on days when I am sad or struggling, I feel so much joy and gratitude in my heart. I am happier than I have ever been.
My journey has been a complex one and there is so much to be shared. And I will share it. I promise.
So what am I going to do this Valentine’s Day? My best friend is coming over. I’m making dinner, lighting some candles, and putting some music on while we toast to self-love, the love shared between friends and family, and the future love of my life, whomever and wherever he may be. I still have hope, despite divorce and the dating mishaps of LA. ;)
Happy Valentines Day my loves! xx